backyard bog filter connected to my swimming pool almost ready for testing : ) once it's full of gravel and water plants it will create a natural filter for the pool and replenish the oxygen used by the fish
and she cast me away just like that dotted line on the page saying nothing but receiving everything everything except wanting wanting everything i stumbled forward down the stoop of time into the street of days to the coast of man onto the boat of flags and raised my spirits there there i did strip off my coat my shirt my hat i did remove my watch as that boat left the coast slowly as if in no hurry as if looking for a simile as if serving a purpose as if looking for the prize on the high seas of my expectations like a pirate like a prince like a part time clerk at walgreens . . .
let go of your agony torture what was that word she told me let go of your anxiety your angst your miserable your sadness that’s not it the word was commiserate with how i feel half the time it was the perfect word i had never used it before now i’ve forgotten it turmoil upset incindiary visious dreams of pathos ahhhggh !! i know it’ll come to me in time if i try hard enough struggle bitter unrequited gosh i’ve strewn it everywhere that’s why i can’t give it up that’s why i didn’t even know i had it i hid it practiced it dreamed about it just this morning so familiar i believed it the thesaurus that’s where i’ll find it blank page black out lost disconnected bewildered what was that word when i remember it i will know what i’m supposed to let go of frustration remedial behavior relax release anguish